Addiction Game

I feel like I'm about to implode. Overdosing in emotion.
Confronting my new addiction ... to emotions
Such a fear of dying. Such a fear to live
So much crying, so much more to give
My leg. My knee. I feel some residue
My heart, untamed, beats way too fast

Everyone's a junkie of their own little thing
Even if their thing is helping someone.
It still hurts to help when you can't help yourself
So ya' just hang out ... with yourself

Life's the short and painful game
Denial is a liar's game, Bliss is an ignorant game
Self-infliction is a life-threatening game
Love is the hardest game
Pain is an overplayed game, I'm getting quite bored playing that game
I'll find something new, it's not all the same

I talk to the animals cause they feel my pain
The animals love me, the animals are kind, the animals are emotional
The animals are in the shadows

But my cat is beautiful because she loves me
She kisses me and sometimes she ignores me
Cause even she can get bored of me
But she knows me so she loves me, so she sleeps on my chest
She licks me when she wants, she plays with shiny quarters
When I'm lonely she comforts me, she keeps me alive

Women are beautiful, emotion at the many ... misunderstood emotions
I've known loneliness, loneliness comforted me, loneliness bothered me
Loneliness played with me, Loneliness always leaves me, Loneliness screws me
Just cause it's easy

"He had to ... that guy in that red RX7, six-foot-eight friggin giant ...
Called me an idiot, called me a loser, called me a weakling ...
Go head. I won't fight you. I have too much to fight for.
Go home to your victim wife and go shoot yourself. You can't hurt me.
I'm just your reflection, when the smoke clears and ya' get glasses.
You angry big prick who wanted to beat me. 
The people on their pristine green lawn with their family; wouldn't help me.
I said CALL THE COPS BEFORE THE DUDE KILLS ME ...
They looked at my punk ass and did nothing. So I bowed my head."

To that violent guy in the street:
I'm the guy hiding behind the shades with a cap on his head
I don't want to fight, leave me the hell alone
I'm just trying to enjoy myself. You saw my anger you seven foot giant
I'm only five-seven
BUT
I'm far bigger than you. You can sew up your scars. Leave mine open
You don't hate me, you simply hate you
I didn't think you were so bad. I scare me much more than you ever could
I'm just an ignorant child, I love you
Really I do ...